April was a shit month,
Although, if you’re a poet,
There is no such thing.
There is still the way the sunlight fell on the branches at 2.40pm, and the rajasthani sky turned bluer than you would believe, and an old woman held out a garland for you to take to the temple, underneath the sanctuary of her wrinkled, familiar smile.
There was the way that anger rusted a part of you into a stone that could not be broken. And the way arms fitted around you, in those moments where gravity hurt more than usual. And the way your father continued to wake up and make you a fruit smoothie each morning.
And the way you hid things from people who loved you, because you wanted to spare them the knowing. The way that your mind played tricks on itself, just to survive- and someone said PTSD and you understood what they were getting at. And the way that after 23 days of daily poetry, something tripped you so bad, that for a while, you weren’t able to put words to paper.
April might have been a shit month, but it ended with your feet on the ground.
And now they want to jump.